Broken is a story that is best read Chronologically to start from the beginning – Prologue
Here we go… I launched my Tinder, Bumble, and Hinge game for the first time as a single person. I was putting myself out there. It was scary. I had to put Hailey out of my mind. After all she hadn’t given me much consideration while dating some guy 10 times just a couple months ago. The empath justice side of me was coming out in full force.
First week I had 4 dates… whoa that was waaaay too much. Sometimes I had 2 dates in one day. I noticed something early on. I was really uncertain about the way people felt about me. The dates were pleasant. But was it something I was doing. On one of them I nearly broke out in a full sweat. Maybe I wasn’t ready for this, then it happened.
Somewhere on the 4th or 5th date I was out. I was doing well. Maybe it was just me relaxing. Charming she was having a good time we were laughing share and appetizer. We pretty much closed down the bar. I did like her but there was some red flags. She was attractive, tall, blonde (fake), boobs (faker), and sweet but kind of a mess emotionally.
I walked her to her car and gave her a kiss goodnight. Or so I thought. She said what are you doing now… I was like ummmm going home. She asked “where is home?” I lived only about a 12 minute drive from where we were. She said “I will follow you.” I just went with it. We drove back to my place and continued to drink. I just spoke with her. I was nervous about it going too far. So no additional moves were coming from me. Not on purpose. But i wanted to be respectful.
She finally broke the ice on what was going on. She said “you really are a good guy aren’t you?”. I just said. I guess. “She said it’s ok, we are going to fuck tonight if you want to.” I couldn’t believe it. I was turned on by it. It was 1 AM we were up all night already so no time like the present.
I stood up off my couch grabbed her hands stood her up and kissed her good. I wasn’t going to go crazy. I just led her to the bedroom and undressed her slowly. I could already tell she had a great body. So I wanted to unwrap it like a present. I don’t think I was every with a woman as tall we were eye to eye.
As I had her down to her bra and panties I twisted her around with her back to me and I pulled her in and kissed her neck. I just held her for a few minutes. I could feel her anticipation my hand ran over her breasts (definitely fake, but nice), then down in between her legs. I went right under her panties. I firmly touched her warm wet spot. I unhooked her bra and let her stand there naked with my hard cock pressed against her ass.
While playing with her nipples. I peeled off my clothes and pulled the blankets down the bed spun her around and laid her down. Before I climbed on top I pulled her panties off. I grabbed a condom from the night stand and put it on. Climbed on top and assisted myself in her. I was just going slow. I didn’t feel quite myself. Part of these moves were me but not. Almost like a puppeteer or lip syncing.
I started to find some sort of rhythm but I wasn’t great. She moaned I could tell it wasn’t her greatest experience as it was not mine. But I forged on I pushed inside repeatedly. I couldn’t get in the present moment. I apologized and said you are the first person I have been with in a few years. And it was true I had only slept with Hailey in the last 3 years of my life to that point. She said something I didn’t expect. “You are doing alot better than you think you are.” Flattered I finally snapped into it. I started remembering to use my hands, eyes and mouth. I was kissing her and giving her great nipples some attention. I could hear her moans build and she came. And seeing it is way past bedtime it was my turn. I turned a slow burn into something more rapid and then I came… and thought “that wasn’t so bad. I did it.” Then she did the most unexpected thing. She got up and came back with two drinks. And I thought “Oh my god, the night isn’t over.”
We drank and fucked and drank and fucked. I was out of gas as the clock turned about 4:30. She was the energizer bunny. It took me about 4 days to recover. We spoke after but I literally couldn’t make plans with her in fear of the 3 day hangover. It was probably a good first experience minus the recovery time. But it was also hollow at the end. I felt like an addict getting a fix. And I missed Hailey…