Broken – What’s Next

In early Covid time it was a different dating scene more phone calls, texts and facetiming. Everyone wanted to be sure of something (I don’t know really what) before they met someone. Oh yes if the person was worth it. Which is also a determination necessary in person.

Broken is a story that is best read Chronologically to start from the beginning – Prologue

In early Covid time it was a different dating scene… more phone calls, texts and facetiming. Everyone wanted to be sure of something (I don’t know really what) before they met someone. Oh yes if the person was worth it. Which is also a determination necessary in person. Not that I didn’t understand everyone’s caution on risking a serious illness to meed someone they never met. Haha!

I was still stinging from Hailey but sitting still wasn’t doing me any favors. But what was I ready for. Is my heart in a safe spot? I guess it probably isn’t but there was nothing I could do. But trust me when I slowed down or started having time to think, it was all Hailey all the time. I just missed her, her presence, her smile, everything. But I had to move on as best as I could.

So I swiped what seemed like endlessly and then I had a nice match. Tammy. She was sweet and friendly and funny. We spoke for about 2 weeks before meeting and went for the pandemic date walk. Super common these days.

We had a few dates here and there but really had trouble progressing it. She had alot of kids let’s just say. So I was wondering where it was going. It felt like it was dying out. Then suddenly she asked if she could come see me on a Sunday night. I said sure.

She came over wearing a black dress. I thought she was just dressed up from the day. After all our plans were so late. I could tell she was a little tired. So I rubbed her shoulders and she was so grateful. She without warning stood up and just grabbed me and kissed me. We hadn’t done much more than sweet kissing to this point. But there was more here this time.

She whispered “I dressed for you”. And she wasn’t talking about her dress dress. She had black bra, panties and thigh high stalkings. Giddy up!! That got me going almost instantly and I was suddenly in a man handling mood. As soon as that dress hit the floor I hoisted her up. She was super lean and light and what could only look like a wrestling move she hit my bed.

As I started to hastily remove my clothes she grabbed my cock and took it in her mouth. I could tell she probably was a little out of her comfort zone here because she tired quickly. No matter I got on top and returned the favor. Gave her a few kisses of my own on her clit made sure she was nice and wet. Then shoved myself in. I seriously relentlessly fucked her for… I don’t know, felt like forever. Just had it that night and I had to give her breaks. She was quiet and not super responsive so all this made me do was fuck harder. I was waiting for something, anything.

Finally I tired and found my spot and came. We were both sweaty messes. She left almost immediately after to get home to her literal tribe.

So I was left wondering… what the hell is our relationship. It was super sweet and innocent and it went to primal. I was soooo confused…

Author: Matt

Hi, I’m Matt. Just your average uneventful guy. Dedicated Dad, emapth, and nurturer. Going through something I couldn’t possible ever thought possible. My story is called Broken. About an affair at the end of a long marriage and how ultimately I experienced the worst heartbreak of my life. It's honest, raw, and a little bit entertaining. I hope to share my story so people can learn while being therapeutic for myself.

12 thoughts on “Broken – What’s Next”

  1. Umm… wow! I think she is a little backward in coming forward about what she wanted… she dressed for you and she sure sounds like she’s dressed sexy as hell, all black is a winner every time, especially with a giggle line stocking top on show! I do wonder if, given the quiet and not super responsive reaction, is because she thought you would go slow and easy and sensual rather than primal need? I’m interested to know if she comes back and you clarify her position? Did she orgasm? Or did I miss that? Great story telling as usual Matt 😀

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    1. I have no idea if she orgasmed or not. I did start out a little slow but just wanted to give her something different or in accordance with what I thought was right for the moment. If you felt confused a little so did I. Tomorrow’s post will clarify some of this.


      1. Cool, I would just like to clarify that I wasn’t judging your performance, not at all! Sounds like under any circumstances she should have orgasmed regardless of what she was or was not expecting. Her reactions were very subdued? That’s where my confusion came from. 😀

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  2. I have a Hailey-related question. Once she went back to James, did she ever contact you again? She seems the type to not make a clean break and keep things messy for awhile….
    And…as you live in the same town…. do you ever run into her?
    And….did your wife ever find out about her?
    LOL….I think those are all of my questions 🙂

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  3. Well, she dressed for you so she probably WAS in the mood. For something. But two things struck me here — before you fucked, you noted she was tired. And then you even noted again she was out of her comfort zone and tired or tiring… or tired in general or tiring of giving you head. (There’s a reason they call it a blow JOB btw). How did that register for you at that point? Or how did your brain read those signals?

    maybe she just wasn’t that into it that night despite it being primal…NOT saying necessarily that she wasn’t into you or into the sex btw… but she just wasn’t feeling herself?

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    1. She certainly didn’t have to give me head. I was just undressing she grabbed me. What I mean by out of her comfort zone and tiring is she didn’t seem to do it often but based on her body language wanted to try. Certainly conversation was had regarding her wanting sex. Her being tired from her handful of kids and tiring while giving a bj I don’t think were related at all.

      I guess I will spoil the next post and say that she called again the following week. Came over for sex and left. I realized I was a booty call. I will clean up unresponsive by meaning quiet and reserved. We took breaks because it was hot. At the end of the day it was her idea to come over for sex not once but twice. As an empath I am constantly trying to feel what someone else is feeling. So I tried harder to see if that was more pleasurable for her.

      When I said I was confused I was uncertain about her intentions with me regarding the relationship. I understand there might be some confusion sometimes because I use a shortened writing style and I leave some of the blanks to be filled in. But make no mistake I would never EVER push past a woman that wasn’t interested or misread her signals before, during, or at any point with regards to sex.


      1. You’ve never given me the impression that you’ve pushed past a woman that wasn’t interested. Sorry if my comment implied that! I even did say in my comment that her actions didn’t mean necessarily that she wasn’t into the sex with you or you. In all that, my point was missing — some people react differently to primal sex…. hers wasn’t equal to yours? And hey we all even go back for that second slice of pizza because … we can? Lol? Sorry, Matt – my comment came off differently than intended.

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        1. So I probably should have said that “she wanted to try this” we were both new to dating and it was an experience she wanted. She was just quiet and out of her comfort zone. No judgement just her getting her feet wet so to speak. I tried to oblige. No worries I think we both misread each other here. I probably overstate primal here. Where it is just more physical and less sensual than normal.

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