Broken is a story that is best read Chronologically to start from the beginning – Prologue
It was a strange place to be. I was dating this really great girl, except the doesn’t like to kiss part, and I had the love of my life almost begging me back. That same night the one she came back I went out with Ashley. It was interesting Hailey wasn’t as much on my mind. I think it was surreal. I didn’t believe it yet.
Ashely and I went to play tennis. She was really good I could tell played alot. I had to buy a racquet just for that night. I hadn’t played in years. I hoped it would all come back to me. Or it might be an embarrassing date.
For some reason it came easy to me that day I was hitting shots I haven’t in years. Maybe it was all the running I was doing. I was apologizing for hitting some good ones. I beat Ashely 6-4. We played one set I think we were anxious to get to other things.
We went back to my place and both took showers, not together. Had a quick bite then after a little bit of conversation she asked “can I suck your dick?” She really liked this. And it was a huge turn on. I actually was in my chair something I always thought about. King of the castle and all. She was very good she really took her time enjoyed and moaned through it. Such an amazing sound when a woman is down there when they are turned on by pleasing you.
After a time I pulled her up spun her around and pulled down her panties. I pulled her onto my lap and inserted myself inside her. I pulled her close to me just to embrace, feel her amazing breasts and just enjoy the moment. We just stayed there just deep with a little movement. I kissed her neck. God I wanted to kiss her in that moment.
I pushed her off of me and guided her towards the bed. She said, I brought something. And was like “oh” she said “I have my vibrator can I use it?” I said “Of course”. She laid down at the end of the bed and I stood. I pushed inside her as she clicked her vibrator on. This was my first experience with a toy and me. She pressed it against her clit and asked me to fuck her as hard as I could. So I did. Actually at one point after about 15 minutes of just giving it everything I had, I nearly passed out. I was straining fucking so hard I forgot to breathe. I had to stop I was in like a full flop sweat. She was screaming so loud. It was like a sexplosion. I had to lay down recover and she climbed on top to finish me off. It was soooo good. It was a great night.
The next day was problematic. I got a text from Hailey. “Was that our closure?” I told her it is more than just about closure. “All I wanted to do was just know where you were at and what were healthy boundaries moving forward and reconciling what had happened to that point. I just have a life to live to and I need to be healthy I want to be healthy. So having conversations about what is going on and dealing with stuff is how I do that. I know it’s not easy for everyone but I need it.”
She asked “Can I come visit? I have so much more to say.” She did come visit but as we talked she didn’t offer much more other than she kept reiterating a plan. She wanted to make sure James was good and she wanted out. What was strange about this plan was how I didn’t understand how I factored in. Other than achieving her freedom to be able to see someone, where was I?
Honestly I did ask the questions. She was trying to think about what was in front of her. But I didn’t want to keep hounding. I was in such a different place in my life. I don’t need to “have an affair”. Nevertheless she told me how much I meant to her. We even kissed for the first time. It was electric but there was something off for me. I didn’t feel safe. I wasn’t sure what to do in the span of time while she wanted me to “wait”.
The issue was our electric connection even in our conversations you can just feel this draw to each other. Her text a little after she left “My Goodness 🔥”. She asked if I had a date with me that night. I said yes. I took a picture of my dog and sent it to her. She said “Oh thank god. I just threw up in my mouth a little.” “Let me figure out my mess.” I wanted to believe her so bad. Just ugh.