Broken is a story that is best read Chronologically to start from the beginning – Prologue
In the aftermath of my time with Hailey I made plans with Ashley. I remembered telling something to Hailey. That I dated a little and was beginning to understand my value to people. I wasn’t trying to be arrogant but I wanted her to know that in some eyes I was a catch. Maybe to make her jealous a little bit. But more about that I was becoming aware.
When you think about it, I really hadn’t dated before Hailey or much during. It really had been 20 years in between dates. It was hard to know if I was attractive, who I was attracted to. I did know I was very attracted to Hailey, for better or worse.
But Ashley was also a catch even if it was on the casual side. I made a trip down to see her. My first she would always come to my place. It was easier. But she was excited to have me down.
She showed me around and it was nice. She made snacks, we ate and talked. Then she did that thing I loved from her… Meekishly asks if she can suck my dick with a little grin. She always takes off her bra she loved not wearing it and would alternate between taking me in her mouth and rubbing her breasts on me.
It was a little slice of heaven. I had her climb on top of me and she rode me hard. It was such a great visual her breasts bouncing with each up and down with the consumption of my cock. She came, I came it was hot. I am pretty sure her neighbors heard us.
We had a great night and I went home that evening and just laid in bed. I was hearing less from Hailey as she indicated things were boiling over at home and then suddenly one morning she said. “I told him.” I was shocked. I said what was his reaction. She said anti-climactic. It is probably because this the fifth or sixth time that those words have been spoken. She didn’t have more details but she said that her communication might suffer. I totally understood but was nervous about it.
About a week had gone by and Ashely and I were trying to make plans. I had asked her a few weeks earlier if she wanted to watch a Playoff Basketball game and she said “no thank you” I didn’t understand at the time. But ok. Then this time she knew I was watching the game and I said “Ok.”
I was excited. I liked company during the game. I can be social and watch. As the day went on she texted me “How about we make plans for another day?” I said “Ok” not thinking much of it. Then the next day “I don’t want to hang out anymore” Not context or reason. Just WTF! I told her that hurt a bit. She said sorry and that was basically it. I am sure she could sense what was going on. Or maybe she wanted more time. It was almost an hour drive back and forth. But still… That sucks and it was so abrupt. Usually you get some reason or warning.
Broken 
Confusing…why do people not explain? I doesn’t have to be elaborate, but something…especially after you have a connection. It’s like ghosting. So confusing to me…
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It was strange and that summed up Ashley at times. It was soooo direct.
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Ashley’s behavior sounds a bit abrupt. But there’s always details us outsiders never know and with your style of storytelling we might hear them later or be enlightened later as to her sudden switch. Maybe she was in her feelings about you and realizing she wanted more than casual. Some women don’t know how to articulate that when the casual feelings turn more serious for them. And some women think they can handle casual and find they cannot. (Many females have some kind of connection from their pussies to their hearts lol.). Or maybe there was someone else. Though I think you might say, none of her actions indicated otherwise — which is probably true. I obviously wasn’t there and don’t know either of you. But I do think that some people’s feelings can turn like a switch. It’s anybody’s guess as to why or how that’s possible. Not that I’m saying this is the right or grown up thing to do, but maybe BECAUSE it was casual, she didn’t feel obligated to owe you any further explanation or give warning just as you were likely not “obligated” to explain your activities apart from her. Again, saying this knowing nothing of the situation, as I’m sure there are details I’m missing.
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No I think you are right. She certainly didn’t owe me anything because it was casual. But I thought maybe an explanation of distance, feelings, or her sensing my distance or all three. Those were a real challenge at that time. The thing that was surprising is even casual or friendship sometimes you do what the other person’s likes are. I wish she trusted me enough to entertain her while watching a game. But it happens. She changed her mind. She wasn’t cold just abrupt.
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So…Hailey told James what? She told him she was leaving,….or she told him about you (again)?
The thing with Ashley is a bit strange. While I guess she wasn’t required to give you an explanation, as the two of you were in a non-committed arrangement…most “normal” people WOULD offer some sort of explanation. It must have felt so strange to receive that text and not know why she was abruptly ending your connection.
The thing is, Matt… you are a catch. You are intelligent, self-reflective, you display high levels of emotional intelligence, I am guessing you are successful at work, and I am guessing you are an attractive person… don’t settle, my friend 🙂
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She told him she was out. Sorry about that. I wish the catch part was more obvious. lol.
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But thank you.
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No new post from you today….? Hope everything is okay and life is just busy for you. Your faithful readers miss you! Well, at least….this reader does 🙂 XOXO
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wow, there are more twists and turns in this than the spaghetti junction! (UK motorway system, it’s a nightmare to navigate through!) A bit like this minefield of strange women you attract to you… just sayin… I do wonder why Ashley just abruptly dropped you, my theory is, she only wanted the sex not the dating thing, the bball thing may have been your undoing. That was a step into the realm of relationship normal and it sounds like she didn’t want it. Cancelled and then bailed. Only my opinion of course lol. I could be shooting air balls here. x
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I think she wanted to have options and you will find out why. She needed me ‘just in case’.
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