Broken – That’s Me

Broken is a story that is best read Chronologically to start from the beginning – Prologue

So I did it I posted a “thirsty” picture. I can’t believe i did it. I know its pretty obscure but you can get the idea. After toying for 3 minutes in the gym with one I couldn’t get it right to where there wasn’t something identifying. Then as I made my way in the elevator there it was… a picture to show and not show me. I can’t go shirtless as I have a very identifiable scar. Sorry. lol.

My change came from so many inspirations. I need more than one typically. It keeps me driven. When I can look back and think about all the things that have inspired me. A picture I took two years ago, my kids having a healthy father, my friends along the way, my love for Hailey, my hate for Hailey, dating in my 40’s, etc.. Even you readers for encouraging (daring, cajoling) me to do it.

But I started out not to transform my body. Maybe this was the difference in it sticking this time. I started to just create the best version of myself. Typically I will get to a good enough spot and stop. Not this time. But there was kind of a wake up call that pushed me to the weights…

This sounds silly but a character (Dinesh) from a show I love (Silicon Valley), if you haven’t seen it, it’s hysterical. Well… Dinesh got jacked for a movie or show for Marvel called the Eternals. I figured if that nerd could do it…

He does mention that he had alot of help. Help that I won’t get and my challenge is different than skinny guys.

Mine is to expose the muscles underneath rather than build it. I have always had broad shoulders and big arms but the definition just needed to pop. Well pop I did. Finally. After many attempts and several on and off years. It was just a matter of finding a program that works. Running is 50% of my program. Nothing in this world is a substitute. It is just incredibly hard on your joints but it sheds weight on me like nothing else.The other part is strength and HIIT training. My strength training is very different but works really well for me.

I also like finding challenges along the way. Like the Army PT test which I can compare to when I was 20. But once a week I challenge myself and yesterday was challenge day… and I finished my workout yesterday after an hour of HIIT and strength by running a mile as fast as I could. I just broke 7 minutes. I thought I was going to pass out.

It has been so much fun and so painful. Darcey is probably the one that has seen the most. Over the summer I will start seeing people I haven’t seen in over a year. The few people that see me are usually stunned. I am pretty sure Hailey was. And I saw her AGAIN on my walk this morning. So much for varying times.

But it’s nice to sit down and not have a belly over the belt or go clothes shopping. Which I have done now 3 separate times. As I thought “well I won’t get any thinner than this.” Even to when Hailey said “you are so skinny”… I am about 30 lbs from that moment.

The next month I am really going to push myself (right after second shot) to see how competitive I can get to Dinesh. He took 1 year to get that. Want to see if I can do it in about 6 months. But it would be a year since I started running 3/4 times a week.

I can’t sustain this pace though. I want to run 3 times a week and train twice and maintain. Maybe slowly build. After July I will vary my routine to something else. But I will come back to this. Because it has yielded results I have never had.