Broken – ‘Normal’?

This weekend was the first sort of normal weekend in a long time. Darcey and I went “bar hopping”. Now that they have lifted most of the restrictions and yours truly has been vaccinated. We got out.

Broken is a story that is best read Chronologically to start from the beginning – Prologue

This weekend was the first sort of normal weekend in a long time. Darcey and I went “bar hopping”. Now that they have lifted most of the restrictions and yours truly has been vaccinated. We got out. We had fun it was so interesting. Normal and weird.

Normal is in quotes because it’s not quite that yet. But it feels like some variety of it. Also for me on a different note. Burning that bridge has been liberating. I just need to leave it be now. Unless it comes knocking on my door again.

I haven’t spent much time thinking about Hailey in any other way other than what my next move is if she makes one. I have figured that out and I put it in a box. So I can focus on me. My future. My summer journey. Darcey named my summer journey for me. Post COVID Super Whore Summer. I added the tag line Plugging holes and sucking poles… We wanted to be inclusive of genders and sexualities. Lol! Sounds like fun.

There has been the occasional Hailey blip this weekend. But honestly I feel almost completely normal. It’s almost foreign. I am both a little scared, odd, but very much excited. The weather has been outstanding so maybe things are on the rise.

I am hoping to experience some stories to share, new ones, there are still a few old ones I need to get out there. But I can feel the past becoming my past with each and every hour. I know there will be setbacks but just wow it felt good to be a little normal this weekend.

Darcey and I laughed so hard this weekend. We are good people watchers. We have a few laughs as people walk by but feel like bad empaths afterwards. I am worse than she is, judging I mean, because I am INFJ. So judging comes natural. She gasped a bunch at some of my comments and we played guess the bra size. As it was like summer and everyone’s boobs were out. I feel awful about it today and at the same time can’t wait to play again.

We did say alot of nice things about the people as well. Guessing their stories commenting about how nice people looked and fashion choices. Maybe poking fun a little but it was all in good fun. As I walked up to her initially and I was right by a girl who was greeting her friend with a Kardashian like “OMG Becky! You are so fucking cute!” I went a different route with Darcey. I said “Wow nice tig ole bitties” as she was wearing a cleavage bearing dress. I wonder how audible mine was as well.

It was hard to suppress a laugh right away with the juxtaposition of the two greetings. But all in all it’s just good to see smiles again. We still have a ways to go but being outside and smiling and vaccinated and Hailey free this weekend was just amazing!!

Author: Matt

Hi, I’m Matt. Just your average uneventful guy. Dedicated Dad, emapth, and nurturer. Going through something I couldn’t possible ever thought possible. My story is called Broken. About an affair at the end of a long marriage and how ultimately I experienced the worst heartbreak of my life. It's honest, raw, and a little bit entertaining. I hope to share my story so people can learn while being therapeutic for myself.

3 thoughts on “Broken – ‘Normal’?”

  1. Glad to hear you had an amazing weekend, my friend! I can understand why letting go of the H dream completely may have felt a bit jarring. While you may not have ended your marriage for her (you ended it because you were unhappy), you did believe she was your future. And now… you have a blank canvas, just waiting to be painted. Personally, I look forward to hearing your dating stories! Perhaps instead of the “Broken” tagline for this blog… you will be more “under construction” now. Smiles at you. You are young and healthy….go get those girls and make some new memories 🙂

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    1. Under Construction. Lol! I like it!! But I don’t mind remembering where I came from either. Thanks for the encouragement Nora! I will keep everyone posted.

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  2. Yes! I’m so glad you finally had time to enjoy a weekend without the Hailey factor, here’s to more Hailey free days and a fun summer.

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