Broken is a story that is best read Chronologically to start from the beginning – Prologue
It’s funny, I thought this might be harder than it’s been. I can see why I wanted this separation to begin with. It’s peaceful and healthy so far. I can’t say that I wish I had done it a long time ago. I think I needed to be ready.
But also timing wise I had to have some things happen as the risk of crossover is too great without getting away for a day or two. I continue to have good workouts but may need to change something up as they are starting to get easier. Never thought I would say that.
The trouble is pushing too hard can cause injury which we all know with my foot has been an issue. Planning a couple nights for a staycation. Darcey and I are going to try living a little big and see what kind of trouble we can get into. It would be a celebration of the 21st day assuming I make it. I feel pretty good about that.
The variable is Hailey. At what point does she feel like “wait something’s missing”. And make herself more present. I think it will be probably a few more days before she notices. But she will notice.
The second variable is how far is she willing to go for her fuel. Maybe she will seek it out elsewhere. I can only hope so. I did drive by her today but never really saw her. So I am not counting it. I am only counting my habits and what I can control. Developing the habit of not seeking her out.
I am ready and have been for a while to make her go away for good. I hope this all works.
You’ve got this! Here’s to making big plans on the 21st!
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Thanks Storm. One day come celebrate. 🙂
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Now that sounds like a plan!!!
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The only thing you can control is your thoughts and behaviors. Being aware of what you were doing…seeking her out by driving or walking by, keeping yourself caught up in the drama…is a GREAT first step toward healing. You can do this. And, you already know she might try to get further attention from you so you are mentally prepared. No matter what she tries, simply ignore her. This is good for you, and it will make her crazy (not that making her crazy is the goal, but it will be a byproduct of ignoring her attention-getting strategies). Can’t wait to hear about your plans to celebrate!!!
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Happy to read along your progress!
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